Monday, October 20, 2025

epi log ~

{or .. winds of change OR HALT!    you are under a (for) rest}

          -     calling a written work of any length a “piece” is apt -  at least, that’s the word i usually use, rather than poem, essay, … etc      length doesn’t matter- it’s never more than a piece, even if it’s a six inch thick tome -  from Ulysses to the word “is” - in the grander scheme, it’s all haiku. even war and peace is just a piece, always relatively small - and incomplete…yet even still, precious - important- to be treasured.   that said,

i nearly gave up more than once and deleted that last “piece “  -more than once - quagmire… that became my term of endearment for it…  it sat in drafts file- we waited for each other in different ways - for months.

so complicated in its way, because it was so stubbornly homogeneous and complete - a seamless entity; i felt it as a whole- very like a tree itself within its forest amidst Sagan’s billions and billions of… ahem. yes (see the onomatopoeia piece from 1/26/24).

the world presents itself to me thusly, and so simply  -  breaking it down to one word 

at             a                     time is …

rather daunting - patience more than anything else-but that’s largely what human language is and does- breaks it down to one word at a time- our version of language with symbols heard and seen… felt first and ever beyond their actuality or implication -, other versions of language abound and surround, just beyond apprehension-   i believe this because i feel/sense them “out there “ but words are what i land in/on - 

strange to love poetry and prose (and how i so do) whilst also holding such stark awareness of how short they fall in many many ways  - particularly and ironically,  this includes clearly communicating … much at all … (filling in the blanks with blanks, because words ultimately fail and in the stark reality of my own life, in many areas, i finally have nothing left to say, in a tandem existence with so much i wish i could effectively share).

and we’re off on another roll now aren’t we? which brings me to 

                     “fragments”-    

instead of branches connecting and spreading exponentially - each pair multiplied indefinitely -  paring back and down, going out on the singular l.i.m. (less is more).  just a limber twig appraised, appreciated and treated as the entirety in all its incompleteness- something so true about this.   

. ..  feel compelled to go there for a while or two…and hopefully, as well, along the lines of lineage and limber limbs (nice segue way), there’s more to be expressed/explored regarding poetry in motion- gestures rather than words.  whispering bodily wisdom and lithe linguistics that question - redefine the “norm.”


                as for the long awaited epilogue:      

 the signature scrawled by the storm was the striking number of trees that fell- all but yanked up and away by its gusty gutsy grip-  telephone poles too -for awhile afterwards, trucks and equipment all about and busy with clearing away - the forest service and/or parks and recreation guys broke the fallen trees down into reasonably movable logs and were swift about it.

but there was one-  i have pictures, but don’t think i managed to get a photo that did her situation justice. even being in 3 dimensional space with her, she can be easy to miss.

apologies, because i realize it is odd to assign a gender… for the record, i am referring to a tree….  (now in particular, because it feels impersonal and wrong to call it an “it” or “the tree”-  so…).  i saw her a couple days after the storm.  completely blown over but about a third of her roots were still sound and solid in the earth-  behind the zoo on that favorite route through the “private property.” i wondered and worried what the department decision would be about this case during the removal of casualties (which never never are at all casual). Sheldan and i checked on her often, and by grace, the parks service came to such a touching decision:

they let her be,      and now a year and a half later:

this is her root base 
2/3s exposed-


if you didn’t know to look for her, it’s pretty easy to pass right by- just a dirt pile and some bushes…
  … incorrect. 
     she is subtly quite upstanding - we have seen birds in her branches, but also bunnies …once, a little fox.

fragments about her:    a symbolic gift- my doppelgänger -
totem, or a high bar role model?  


depends on the day…

her exposed root base- those above ground - they’ve adapted to pull much from the ether - divining rods reaching for?  to meet new needs evolved beyond her former form.
 still in, but no longer quite of this world - 

limb it less - yes.    poetry in motion can be elusive- one might not even notice its movement- it’s not always graceful- ranges from angry mama bear endeavoring to protect her cubs, to furtive fecundity of poet trees, to … countless examples - hope to find a few and suitably, fragmentarily share via letting them speak

 speechlessly 

for themselves, toppling any and all conventional definitions of stability onto their sides.