Sunday, October 22, 2023

i do not live in the past though it surely lives in me






*1  "Sin, young man, is when you treat people like things, including yourself. That's what sin is. " (Author Terry Pratchet's character, Granny Weatherwax) 

*2  Maybe nothing deserves to be thing-ified in any way whatsoever, by a human mind. ... and that is likely the only place such a crime can occur. Maybe scaled judgements of superiority, better or worse etc.,  based on whether a being has a face or a CNS or is even a being, as opposed to a phenomenon or an un-silhouetted moment, maybe all this could be cast out altogether.  It's surprising how limiting limitations can be (????)!               (Me)


the wind
remembers *things  that happen on earth. To her, there are no 
                                                               nouns ...
 
 events,                      phenomenal intention, internal/external invention etc. et al      
                                                        ...all are all beings. 
 
she guides me to speechless interface with so many parenthetical  unnameable's,   she allows intervention in a heart raw human for such moments to uncouple from  thoughts burdensome appraisal.

she brings me 
at least one a day -
gifts i shall call them, i suppose, 
or "friends" with which i people my world. 
... only if i am alert and remember to wait:
a deaf mute witness,
seeing only what the blind can hear 
speak
reverent heresy, she brings me

 other's deleted beauty as if it were my own

and she brings me my own as if it belonged 
always already to all beyond any sense of "me" be
cause she is the wind 

 and she brings me



1). a bi plane red and leaning on the blue grey  low flying.
i didn't know  what ...

looking up and ...



heard it first. 
i mean, you don't see them very often anymore. 

2). a butterfly landing  two steps ahead  of my left footfall on 
 the gravel path where i walked
 her wings were 
 breathing 
slow 
deeply
and
at least in part
i was her breath.

the road itself. 

 3).
gravel
 that shifting sound 
dirt and stones - the word" pebble" 

shuffle
 beneath stepping
what would you call it ...
a sort of crunching? onomatopoeia collaboration -
 step munching.
you can't take just one, 
and I'd walk all days on unmarked  backroads  
if only to feel that sound 
just now 
and again. now. while i go
nowhere.

4).  a very dark large dragonfly, not the streamlined thin blue kind
 he was a  drunk stunt
plane weighed down
by perspective and his own fuel tanks. 
 he companioned me without coincidence 
for a hand full of minutes. lengthened longer than they were -  threading loopy. grim halos around the rims of my concern -
setting me free
 to return to 
the song of my feet until in
 sudden upslope he 

Icarused into the sun.

5).  3 silver christmas tree ornaments clustered
 below eye level 
on one  pine tree
in August  
on my backroad journey
right there dab smack 
on the middle one 
a big ol' son of a gun grasshopper sat in compartmental sway.
i was happy to see him, 
awed by his back leg- rare as a biplane, big and spring loaded,
i believe we made eye contact 


 glance snagged, pulled into a longer gaze in soft chaotic space suspended 
through a butterfly's 1/2 breath
swallowed by an hourglass - a grain at a time halved and again halved each grain containing stillborn laughter and the matrix blueprint for every sandcastle from some late noon kingdom across a shifting makeshift beach     where the world we made, 
then made us

and allowed us graced entrance  - 
built and erased in a half breath halved and again halved


i felt the splash of my own brite heart 
the son and moon gilded tide brought me back to myself 
beneath a shroud of

 6).  certain storm clouds 

attracting dark feathered wings
in cavalcades of 
shade



shadow-callused, shadowed  caw, dimmed in thunderclap 
the only escape, lightening's inaudible call
  inviting you 
yes, just slip  through a brief entry toward  some
 rare other side don't hesitate you may 
not get another chance to 
and may not ever return from 


too late
now gone and  lost in the ho hum 
though a lingering message, 
just like the dove ....

 the right crow can also symbolize love 
P.S.

...There are no wrong crows .


"The mundane is sacred. The sacred is mundane."  Michael Stone.